Life

     This blog was supposed to have been for another purpose but it seams like it has taken a turn for another purpose. I was sitting in the bed listening to Pandora, reading through various blogs and web pages. I was jamming to the Gospels and enjoying the readings. Or so I thought. In reality I hadn’t comprehended anything I heard or read because I was too busy playing the year of 2011 over and over in my head. I have been through some things but who haven’t, right? I got to a point where I wanted to give up, lay down and die. It seemed as though nothing was going right and as much as I knew I was only have the equation, it was more like I was the sole party responsible for a clash of an empire. I started thinking about the what-ifs and why-nots. The how-comes and the fug-its. I decided to just jot down my random thoughts so I can see how they would change over a span of time. How long this time frame would last, I don’t know. I would like to do this fro a year and see what I discover. There are a lot of topics and they are not organized on no particular order. I jotted them down as they came to me. If you are reading and have any responses, please feel free and leave a comment. I would gladly accept anything besides negativity. I need words of encouragement and a little guidance from the seasoned. Thank you in advance, Schey.
November 25th:

I’m still here because the blood still has it’s power. Why is it that women put their lives on hold for their significant other only to be seen as inferior? I love my nieces and nephews and would do just about anything for them. I hate my life right now. I need a job that pays for more than gas, day care and after school care. Hell, I just need a job. I am so thankful that God allowed me to see another day.

November 26th:

Tension the home is the worse ever. The grounds for divorce is infidelity. Why is it that men think they are the world to women and their greatest gifts ever? I love my children but they get on my last nerves! What is a shift dress? How does it differ from a sheath dress? What constitutes for an FBA? Man, oh man, do I wish I can win the lottery. I was told to read Matthews 6:25. I think. I wasn’t paying attention I was so upset. I have lost a lot of weight due to circumstances and had to put an extra hole in my belt.

November 27th:

PUSH. I had to throw my turkey away because I told my husband it wasn’t done. He insisted it was. I had to put in the oven to finish cooking. It smelled horrible after sitting out. What a waste. I wish my Sister and I can just sit and sew and talk and do nothing for a whole week then go to New York and shop for more fabric to sew up. I don’t care what the next person thinks of me. They are a non-factor. I should have gotten an HTC. The screen is so much larger. Sometimes memories can crush a person. Why in the hell did I decorate the kids bathroom M&M?! I had a good time in church service despite life’s situations. The spirit was in MOTION I tell you. I love when my Pastor brings any message. He tell it like it t-i-iz! Romans 8:28.

November 28th:

I should name this A Diary of Thoughts. I feel some kind of way today and it’s not a good way. I really need to go finish sewing. The rain is making my bed call me or am I calling out to my bed? It’s 10:01 am and my 2 year old insists that Wow Wow Wubzy is on. It doesn’t come on until 4 pm. I love listening to Tamela Mann sing. So much to do, so little time. I’m going to lay down. I have never prayed to have my cycle more than I do right. now.! I need to eat something. Really. I can’t control my mouth. I will not control my mouth. If it comes up it’s gonna come out. To all those who don’t like it. Oh well. I am not one to bit my tongue. Maybe that’s why we don’t get alone. Oh well. How can a bed feel so warm and cold at the same time? Is that even possible? Yeap. I need to work on improving my sewing skills.

November 29th:

I have a lot of UFOs to sew up or get rid of. It’s not good if you have stabbed someone 100 times and they haven’t even woke up yet! I need to get back in bed, too.

November 30th:

It’s cold. I want…no, I need some hot chocolate. I wish I could click my little red heels and be done already. Bible study was good. We started the subject: Who is God? What are the Characteristics of God? I wish my husband turn down YouTube! I don’t want to hear car motors run! I have a lot to add but my battery is dying and if I move it’s to get under the covers! Good night.