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I have been to the moon, hell, heaven, the stars and back during my 2011 journey. I have had my ups and my downs and times when I didn’t know if I was going or coming. My laughs and my cries. My lows and my highs. I’ve had people come into my life and people leave. Circumstances arise and circumstances subside. I want to thank God for sparing my life and keeping me safe in his hands. Not just me, but my family, too. There are goals that I have not met and goals that were. 2012 will bring another opportunity, another chance, another non-promised day of life to get it right. Thank you, God for Mercy and Grace that have stayed the way on my shoulders watching guard of me and fighting my battles when I was weak and worn.

I have done all that I know I could have. I have not done all that I feel I should have. But that what I have done I pray it left a positive lasting effect on someone. I am just rambling as things come to mind. This is by no means a poem or a story just my thoughts as I am on the computer listening to two of the kids play Mario Brothers on the Wii. The baby is sleep. The oldest is in the room listening to music. My husband is on the sofa on his laptop – probably on Ebay. We all take for granted what we have and yet, there are others somewhere, and may not be far away, who wish they can have what we have. Not saying that we have much but we are fortunate to have the things we need and some of things we want. Lord, Thank you.

Untold.

Things that you don’t want or need others to know and you have not let them be known. Untold.

You hold the key to your secrets because you don’t want them to be found out. Untold.

You hold your heart in your hands with a tight grip of death for fear if you open it, you’ll be hurt. Untold.

Your childhood past, your teenage pain, your outward smile to hide your inward frown. Untold.

Cloudy memories. Maybe what you remember are right maybe they’re what you were told. The real story will be forever. Untold.

Life

     This blog was supposed to have been for another purpose but it seams like it has taken a turn for another purpose. I was sitting in the bed listening to Pandora, reading through various blogs and web pages. I was jamming to the Gospels and enjoying the readings. Or so I thought. In reality I hadn’t comprehended anything I heard or read because I was too busy playing the year of 2011 over and over in my head. I have been through some things but who haven’t, right? I got to a point where I wanted to give up, lay down and die. It seemed as though nothing was going right and as much as I knew I was only have the equation, it was more like I was the sole party responsible for a clash of an empire. I started thinking about the what-ifs and why-nots. The how-comes and the fug-its. I decided to just jot down my random thoughts so I can see how they would change over a span of time. How long this time frame would last, I don’t know. I would like to do this fro a year and see what I discover. There are a lot of topics and they are not organized on no particular order. I jotted them down as they came to me. If you are reading and have any responses, please feel free and leave a comment. I would gladly accept anything besides negativity. I need words of encouragement and a little guidance from the seasoned. Thank you in advance, Schey.
November 25th:

I’m still here because the blood still has it’s power. Why is it that women put their lives on hold for their significant other only to be seen as inferior? I love my nieces and nephews and would do just about anything for them. I hate my life right now. I need a job that pays for more than gas, day care and after school care. Hell, I just need a job. I am so thankful that God allowed me to see another day.

November 26th:

Tension the home is the worse ever. The grounds for divorce is infidelity. Why is it that men think they are the world to women and their greatest gifts ever? I love my children but they get on my last nerves! What is a shift dress? How does it differ from a sheath dress? What constitutes for an FBA? Man, oh man, do I wish I can win the lottery. I was told to read Matthews 6:25. I think. I wasn’t paying attention I was so upset. I have lost a lot of weight due to circumstances and had to put an extra hole in my belt.

November 27th:

PUSH. I had to throw my turkey away because I told my husband it wasn’t done. He insisted it was. I had to put in the oven to finish cooking. It smelled horrible after sitting out. What a waste. I wish my Sister and I can just sit and sew and talk and do nothing for a whole week then go to New York and shop for more fabric to sew up. I don’t care what the next person thinks of me. They are a non-factor. I should have gotten an HTC. The screen is so much larger. Sometimes memories can crush a person. Why in the hell did I decorate the kids bathroom M&M?! I had a good time in church service despite life’s situations. The spirit was in MOTION I tell you. I love when my Pastor brings any message. He tell it like it t-i-iz! Romans 8:28.

November 28th:

I should name this A Diary of Thoughts. I feel some kind of way today and it’s not a good way. I really need to go finish sewing. The rain is making my bed call me or am I calling out to my bed? It’s 10:01 am and my 2 year old insists that Wow Wow Wubzy is on. It doesn’t come on until 4 pm. I love listening to Tamela Mann sing. So much to do, so little time. I’m going to lay down. I have never prayed to have my cycle more than I do right. now.! I need to eat something. Really. I can’t control my mouth. I will not control my mouth. If it comes up it’s gonna come out. To all those who don’t like it. Oh well. I am not one to bit my tongue. Maybe that’s why we don’t get alone. Oh well. How can a bed feel so warm and cold at the same time? Is that even possible? Yeap. I need to work on improving my sewing skills.

November 29th:

I have a lot of UFOs to sew up or get rid of. It’s not good if you have stabbed someone 100 times and they haven’t even woke up yet! I need to get back in bed, too.

November 30th:

It’s cold. I want…no, I need some hot chocolate. I wish I could click my little red heels and be done already. Bible study was good. We started the subject: Who is God? What are the Characteristics of God? I wish my husband turn down YouTube! I don’t want to hear car motors run! I have a lot to add but my battery is dying and if I move it’s to get under the covers! Good night.

Testing Testing 1, 2, 3, 4, Testing

Just testing to see how things are looking for my new blog. What better way to start than to post about, who else? Me! So, I took a photo of myself today while riding in the car with my adorable, yet sometimes annoying, husband. I don't have the capabilities of sending my photos to my computer because I am cheap, so 1. I haven't bought a cord, and 2. I don't have net connections on my cell. (It's not 'smart'.) lol So, I had to ask my dear Sis to email it to me. :/

Here's my photo:

And here is run down of my thoughts:

1. I done a good job on my quick weave. Yay, it was a first.
2. I really need to get rid of this cold. I look like the walking dead or a raccoon one.
3. I could use a little make-up to spruce me up a bit.
4. Style hint: next time wear a neck chain.
5. Girl, where are your ear rings?! I usually don't go without them so I am going to blame this one on being sick for the last three days.
And number 6. My Diva in the back can give me some tips on head gear! Cute hat.

So, this is my test post and I hope to post something at least once a week to start, but hey, this is life after all so I will just have let it take its course.

QUOTE:
*******No weapon formed against me shall prosper.******* 

Scheryka